Our Stories Start on 18 Feb 09-

hold me tight
and we will run together
in search of the dream
the dream that we shared

just YOU and ME*

takemyHAND*

hold me close
and say three words
like you used to do
just three words
iloveyou-

navigate; right*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Saturday, March 28, 2009
11:47 AM

Last night i tried drinking beer.

I was feeling lost do not know why either.
I was walking my dog at downstair with Stanley..

As walking i went to a nearby shop and i wanna get fruit juice but i do not know why i pick up a beer.

then i started to cry as i walk n walk. then when reach my hse downstair me n stanley was chatting and i started to drink.

I never tried before but i can only remember it smells.
After that i cant recall wat happen after the drink as i think i fell asleep soon after
This morning when i woke up i saw an email and a missed call.

I today will be going to aimin there and see .
Its abt time also..

I will update again ba

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Friday, March 27, 2009
9:31 AM

Yestersday as i was reading thru some of my previous sms.
I found some very sweet and warm sms.

I went gym in the afternoon and did some workout.. I guess i did not have exercise for soooo long till my leg cramp. haha..

This morning when i woke up my whole body especially my leg so so aching..Feel like chopping it off. haha..

I jus hope time faster pass each day... I wanna go travel ....

Hmm i also dunno what can write what cannot write..

Bendan is tired today .. iwannashareitwithyou

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Thursday, March 26, 2009
9:25 AM

25 - 26 Mar is the one of my nicest day..

He encouraged me so so so much.. I was so so happy..
I am looking forward for that very day that he is gonna buy me that gift.

I feel so happy and i slept abt 1230am or so..
I was so thrilled...

26 Mar he called me early morning but i was sleeping.. so i didn't hear the phone as was on slient..
Then when this morning i text him back and all he finally reply me a message i have not seen for a long long time.. i was also vvvv happy..

Thank you for making it happen.

*Bendan is super happy* iwannashareitwithyou

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Wednesday, March 25, 2009
10:42 AM

This morning woke up at 0800hrs still feel so tired .. so decided not to go work in the morning..
so told uncle i taking morning off... went to bed till 1030hrs...

Last nite couldn't really sleep...Lie on the bed from 1240 tried to sleep till 0340hrs still can't sleep.. stanley on the songs for me i still couldnt sleep..
end up we talk till i sleep...

we chat about the up coming trip we are going.. we going to bintan for 2 nights.
what we going to do there basically is to relax and do spa.
waters sports i m not so keen coz i am so fearful of water...
he said just go there walk by the beach...

last night he ask me a question he ask me if i m feeling ok with all my up coming plans. How am i accepting things and will all those be tiring me down.. as i need to juggle between work and health.

i told him i should be do just well.

i think later then or tml den blog..

Bendan is abit emo/ down today..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Tuesday, March 24, 2009
9:34 AM

I reach office at 0900hrs.. and the sky is so so so dark.. Its seems so gray..
It makes me feel sad for a moment.

Last night slept at about 1230am..
Stanley was sitting in my room i think he din sleep..

He was playing songs for me to sleep so last night i actually sleep quite fast..
i think is because of other reasons too..

i was listening to this song.. and want to tell him this.
微笑再美再甜不是你的都不特别
眼泪再苦再咸有你安慰又是晴天
靠的再近再贴少了拥抱就算太远
全世界只对你有感觉
玩的再疯再野你瞪一眼我就收敛马
路再宽再远只要你牵就很安全
我会又乖又黏温柔体贴绝不敷衍
我只对你有感觉

Thank you for being here..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Monday, March 23, 2009
10:38 AM

22 Mar ( Night )

In the afternoon was feelings abit down but after clearing my thoughts i felt better.

At night played games but the the games super lag >< make me so angry with myself. haha..
But i enjoyed the game so so much it been sometimes since i have enjoyed so much..

Stanley accompanied me from morning till night and stayed over at my place. He brought me a hello kitty machine and lots of durians from geylang .. But i didnt eat coz i scare fever comes back..

Then at night i was extremely happy because i felt so much so much better...
Then was also planning my life what it will be and want i wanna it to be..

Next week onwards i guess i will be pretty busy with my new life plans..
Maybe sat n sun will be free.. but i guess sat he will be bz ba..

will see what fates decides.. =x but futures lies on our own hands.. and its our own hands to make things happens.. stanley always tell me miracles do happens if you believe it in.

So i believe 2010 will be good for us and this is the miracle i want to have.

Last nite i cant sleep i ask stanley sing for me.. then he said he cannot sing i said ok lo.
then he let me listen to some music to my surprise all the music is i love de..
i guess he knows me so well and take notes in what i listen...
stanley has been so supporting towards me and all. really appreciate it..
although u are being named as a driver but i never treat you as 1 =x haha..
but u help me save money ma on transport hahaa... i learned form someone de lols..

Ok ba now i gg back to work le.. later then i update the blog...

Bendan is happy today..

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

take my HAND; and GUIDE me through*

Sunday, March 22, 2009
1:07 PM

22 Mar

Today finally discharge from hospital stayed there 2 nights. I was admitted on sat at around 0400hrs . I was poke by a long needle which is super painful.. cannot eat on drip till last night.

I drank herbal crcocodile meat soup and i find it er xin taste weird also. After drink le i vomitted and then admit to hospital.

During the stay in hospital stanley accompany me throughout these period. He become my personal assistant. haha. he buy magazine for me drive me around ..
Someone let me listen to this song call you gu shi de ren. And i went to read the lyrics as follows...
我决定不躲了你决定不怕了就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的曾经交心就非常值得我要专注爱你不想别的没有我决定不躲了你决定不怕了我们决定了让爱像绿草原滋长著天地辽阔相遇有多难得都是有故事的人才听懂心里的歌
我决定不躲了你决定不怕了就算下一秒坎坷这一秒是快乐的曾经交心就非常值得我要专注爱你不想别的没有忐忑

I feel so much better now.. with the encouragment i can go a long long way...

Thank you for staying around for me...

hold me TIGHT; and NEVER let go*

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